This past Friday I was feeling pretty bad when I woke-up, but I just figured that I had a virus or some bug. It finally got to the point that I was so sick that I couldn't watch Lillian anymore and had to call Shaun to come home from work. Alli ended up coming over with Eli to watch Lillian so that Shaun could take me to the doctor- yes it was that bad that I couldn't even drive. Turned out I not only had Swine Flu but also pneumonia. Dr. Weisberg told me that there was no way that I could be around Lillian for the next few days. Not because he was worried about her getting the flu, but because the particular stand of pneumonia that I had was so dangerous for a child her age. He told Shaun and I that "maybe Monday" I could be around her again. He did go ahead and prescribe Tamiflu for both Shaun and Lillian just to be safe. Between feeling so sick and knowing that I could not see my little girl for three days, I just broke down. I don't think that I have ever cried as much as I have this weekend. It is one thing to leave you child when it is your choice and you have planed it out and everything. But this was forced, and I could not even say good bye to her really. Not to mention that this is the FIRST time that she has ever spent the night or even five hours away from Shaun or I. Thank God I have Alli and Korey who I trust more than anything. And who I know love my Lillian like she was their very own.
Alli and Korey are so sweet, and they even went out on Friday and bought a web cam so that we could Skype each other and I would be able to see Lillian. Shaun has been going over to Alli and Korey's so that he can spend time with her and even put her down for bed Friday night and then again for her afternoon nap today. It is times like these that Shaun reminds me of just how dedicated he is to "his" little girl. We live 30 minutes away from Alli and Korey and I know that it be much "easier" for him to just say, " we will see you Sunday or Monday Lillian" and then stay home with me. But Shaun has gone back a forth a few times to check on Lillian and to spend time with her. When he came home today I made him tell me every detail of every second he spent with her. I just miss her SO, SO, SO much and hate being away from her. Our home seems empty without her here. But I only have to be quarantined for a few days so I know she will be home soon. And until then I am just thanking God for Skype!
Saturday, September 19, 2009
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Bless your heart Melissa! Hang in there, and know that little miss Lillian loves and misses you just as much as you do her. And youre so right...you are very blessed to have Ali and Korey who love her so much and are taking such great care of her. Hang in there! HUGS!
Kelly
Hang in there little mommy! I couldn't imagine how hard that is on you guys. Not to mention you are a very sick lady. Praying for you & a speedy recovery. Lillian will be home before you know it. Please let us know if there is anything we can do to help with Lillian. We love her too! Sending you big hugs!
Oh, I hate that for you! And I can imagine how hard it is...I've never been away from Hudson either! But, A & K do adore her. I hope you feel better soon, get some rest and watch trash on TV (Lifetime movies, E!, etc). Love, K
Melissa, I didn't know you were sick. I'm so sorry. I know you miss Lillian SO much. But, just try to get as much rest as you can while she is gone... so you can get better and she can come home. I will be glad to help out next week if you still need some rest. Let me know!
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