Avoiding The Blog

I have been avoiding the blog big time. Honestly, I have just been so sad about how our latest adoption opportunity worked out, and it has been really hard to process everything that has transpired over the last two months. When Shaun and I jumped on the adoption train we knew that it would most likely be a bumpy ride. With domestic adoption there are so many different variables that play into an adoption and at any given time one(if not all) of those variables can blow up in your faces. Some how I allowed myself to believe that our adoption would not be that way. Our adoption would be smooth sailing without any big hiccups let alone any giant explosions. And yet  here we are after a month and a half after receiving "that" phone call licking our wounds and trying desperately to repair our broken hearts and prepare them for the next adoption opportunity. It is so hard...I think about Kaylee all of the time. I worry about her and wonder how she is developing, and if her current caregiver is being the strong advocate for her health care that she deserves. It has been hard to accept that she really isn't going to be apart of our family. The holidays were difficult, because all I could think about was that Kaylee was suppose to be with us. She was suppose to be wearing monogrammed pjs that matched Lillian and John Whitten. She was suppose to be apart of her family. I feel angry, discouraged, helpless and heartbroken. I know that God has an amazing plan for our family and Shaun and I are so thankful that we even were given the opportunity to pray for and love Kaylee. And we will spend the rest of our lives praying for and loving Kaylee in our own way.

Anyway, that is my sob story. And now back to blogging about the fun stuff  : ) 

Above all, fear the LORD and worship Him faithfully with all your heart, considering the great things He has done for you.

1 Samuel 12:24