Can I go back to work yet??

Believe me, I know how blessed I am to be able to stay at home with our daughter and not have to work right now. But there are those days, like today, when I am ready to enroll her in the first daycare that I come across and head back to the work force. Needless to say it has been a long day at the Hays home. Thank God I have my sister Alli. I don't know what I would do without her. She was brave enough to take on my little monster and try to get her to go down for a nap this afternoon. It kind of worked. It worked for twenty five wonderful minutes anyway. Shaun just got home and he told me that I could have a 30 minute "time out" to relax or do whatever I wanted. THIRTY MINUTES!! I need like two or three hours; happy hours. You know the kind of hours that involve wine, beer, a mixed drink or two-usually half off. And some how I find myself using my precious thirty minutes to make a blog entry; go figure. The sad thing is that even now, while I am taking my time out, I am missing her and am jealous that Shaun is getting to feed her dinner. I know that there will always be days like this one. But we get through them, and we pray for a better tomorrow. And in the morning when Lillian and I are cuddled up on the couch, her dozing in my arms, I will kiss her and quietly thank God for those priceless moments.