Remaining Faithful and Hopeful

Last Sunday our teachers asked us to think back over this past year and share with our class how we had seen God's hand moving in our lives. As soon as the she finished the sentence Shaun squeezed my hand and tears came to my eyes. We obviously were thinking of the same thing...our struggle to have another child. Oh, how God's hand has been in our lives. What a comfort it has been to have felt him holding us, guarding our hearts, protecting our marriage through all of this over the past year.

I constantly think about the day I found out I was pregnant with Lillian and how scared, upset, worried, happy, nervous Shaun and I both felt. We had been married for two seconds, and wondered how God could trust us with such a responsibility so early on. Looking back I now know that God knew Shaun and I would both need her right now. He knew the struggle we would face in conceiving another child and the pain that it would inflict. He knew the comfort she would bring to us month after month, pregnancy test after pregnancy test. How great is God's plan, how perfect is his timing?

Shaun and I decided this past September to take a break from fertility treatments for a few months, and it has actually been nice. But after taking this time to refuel emotionally and physically we are ready to start back down that road. Hopefully God will grant us our hearts desire, and we will be pregnant soon. But until then we shall continue to remain faith and patient as God's plan for our family unfolds.