Yes, believe it or not there is an ugly side to this otherwise fabulous, extremely rewarding job of mine. Like today, I feel like I have never been so exhausted in my life. My stomach is killing me from this little baby making his or herself extra cozy in there. My hard working hubby has been MIA studying for his finals for the past couple of weeks -so thankful for you hard work Shaun-but being 24/7 on my own with Lillian can be trying to say the least. I want nothing more today than to curl up in bed and watch all six seasons of Sex In The City. But instead it is 7:45 am and I have already been outside coloring with sidewalk chalk, cleaned paint off of the kitchen wall, delt with two melt downs over Cheez-Its, enforced one timeout for hitting, played "lets make a deal so mommy can shower", and kissed three boo-boos.
It is hard when you know that your job means never leaving the office, always having to be in a good mood and smiling, being on call 24/7 for you boss/child. No one tells you, "good job today" , or gives you a bonus for your hard work. You can't go to the bathroom by yourself, and if you try than you just end up with a screaming toddler sticking her fingers underneath the door. These are a few of the ugly things about being a stay at home mommy that wear on you after awhile. Everyone complains about their job from time to time, right? But on days like today it is good to remember the perks of this fabulous, extremely rewarding, always entertaining job. Such as...this morning Lillian gave me "nose kisses" while we laid in bed together after Shaun had left for work. We cuddle on the couch every morning and watch Mickey Mouse Clubhouse or Dora together. I get to go to Chuck E Cheese on a random Tuesday with some great Mom friends and their sweet kids. I get to spend hours a day coloring and painting with my little girl, eating Popsicles on our back porch. I never miss one word, one silly face, one kiss or one hug. I love when she just walks in the room and says, "hey momma" as she goes about doing whatever it was she was doing. When I lay down with her in the afternoon for her naps as she dozes off I always whisper, "I love you" and sometimes, every now and then, she will whisper "I love you too" back to me as she falls asleep. In those little moments I am so thankful for my job and my controlling, demanding little boss. God is so good, and it seems like on those really hard days He always brings me a really sweet moment like that one. I like to think of it as God giving me a little pat on the back saying, "your doing a good job, just hang in there".
My stay at home mommy saga continues- in the time it has taken me to write this post Lillian has stripped down naked-although she is still wearing her pink crocs, taken all of the clothes out of her dresser and put them in the middle of the kitchen floor. Duty calls...I guess in this economy I am just glad to have a job.
**I love you Lillian, and love every moment that I get to spend with you. I am painfully aware that these years with you are going by all too quickly, and I am forever grateful for the time I get with you everyday.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
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6 comments:
Totally relatable. You couldn't have said it better.
Such a great post-- you hit the nail on the head-- it is a fabulous job, but that doesn't always mean it's easy---
"Amen!" to this post! You are so right!
By the way, Lillian is getting to be such a big girl! She is just beautiful, and you can just tell she's going to be the best big sister!
I am right there with you! It is so worth it, but so hard sometimes!! Hope you are feeling better!!
What an awesome post. It is hard at times, but thank God for those priceless moments! You are so right about all of it. Thanks for saying what we all feel.
Some days I wish I was a stay at home mom to spend as much time with Wyatt as I can but then there are days that I love being a full time working mother. I guess both ways is an awesome job!!!
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